
Lately, I have felt a bit disconnected and a times a little hard hearted towards God and prayer. I was racking my brain trying to figure out why the disconnect had happened. I believe at least one reason is that I have not been obedient to take steps toward freedom in the above two areas. Most of the time, I just kind of ignore these areas by not really focusing in on them... I guess I thought if I just don't give thought to "breaking free" in these areas I was not really sinning, or at least sinning deliberately on purpose. What I felt this week is that I am outright sinning on purpose when I do not do the things I feel God wants me to do. I can pretend not to deal with my problems, but sadly my problems/struggles are dealing with me.
These areas I am struggling with are areas in which I find comfort (a false comfort), but I have been deriving comfort from them so long I can't tell the difference if it is a false comfort or not. In my head, I know the God should be my only comfort!!! I was having a little pitty party for myself as I was thinking about what steps needed to be taken to "break free" ( I have taken Beth Moore's study :), and what things I needed to give up... Later that day, I was doing my Bible study and I came across this verse that put things in perspective...
Hebrews 12:4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.
In your struggle with sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood... Wow, that definitely sent conviction up and down my spine. The sin that I am struggling with is so very trivial... it really has to do with my comfort and pleasure, and I am having a pitty party that I have to give it up. Wow again!!!
Then I read the verses that come after verse 4 and am encouraged...
5And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons:
"My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,
and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
6because the Lord disciplines those he loves,
and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."[a]
7Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? 8If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. 9Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! 10Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. 11No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
WHOA!!! I love it... When God disciplines me it is for my good (that I may share in his holiness-Verse 10), and if God is asking me to give up something, it is for my good. I know all of this in my head, it just hasn't worked itself into my belief system yet. I have 20 years of thinking way one (IN UNBELIEF), and now I need to get serious about my relationship with God, and BELIEVE HIM!!!!The Bible also says, "without faith it is impossible to please God", and I want to so please Him. If I don't please Him in this life, then I really wasted my time on planet Earth. When life is over, I will never look back and complain about the things I had to give up... In giving up things now on earth, I have an opportunity to really live my life to the fullest on earth :)
So, I am thankful once again that my spiritual eyes are open to see what God wants me to see.
If today, there is an area that God is asking you to change, I encourage you to change it (remember I will be encouraging myself to do the same thing... my flesh is so very weak), because I know we will never regret it!!!
Blessings today and everyday!!!!












