This post came about as a result of me watching the Francis Chan video (see the post on my blog about two down). I was nervous about watching a video called "Lukewarm and Loving It", but at this point in my walk with Jesus I do want to know the truth, even if I don't think I want to know.
The whole video is so good, but only about five minutes into the video I had a revelation of sorts. Francis Chan was talking about how over 50% of the world live on less than $2.00 a day. I think we all have heard that statistic stated in some way or another in the last decade. Francis then mentioned about the verse from the Bible that talks about how difficult it is for the rich to enter heaven, and then it just clicked in my mind. I am the rich, and it is difficult for me to enter heaven.
(Matthew 19:24 Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.")
I think I always thought that verse pertains to the people in the world that are billionaires, millionaires, superstars, but not me. I am not rich, or at least I thought so. You see in my myopic view I was applying that verse to me living in
America, but I don't just live in America, I live in a world... a world so much bigger than what my selfish eyes can see. According to the statistic of over 50% of people that live on less than $2.00 a day, that would make me filthy rich...a billionaire!!!
As the video went on Francis so passionately explains how money and riches (even if we think we don't have money) cloud our view of God, and the more money we have the more we find comfort and safety in it, and not God. As I watched the video I just sensed so many ways I trust money and not God...how I wrestle with giving up things I want and think it is a sacrifice. Oh, how sinful and foolish I am. I don't see God for who He is... High and mighty and lifted up. I think too highly of myself, and I don't want to anymore.
Francis also talked about the story in the Bible of the rich man that wanted to know what he could do to have eternal life, and when Jesus told him the last thing to do , which was to sell everything he had and give it to the poor and follow Him, the rich man walked away... he couldn't do it. I don't want to be that rich man. (Story found in Mark beginning at verse 17)
The verse above from Matthew says it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter heaven...that sounds impossible, but I am reminded in the Bible that with God all things are possible ... So yes, even a selfish woman like myself that has not viewed God the way He deserves can change and follow Him. Lord I need you so...
(Feel free to watch the video below to see the whole message)